The transition to confessional blog from "keep track of fun activities I'm doing!" was pretty short. But I'm okay with that.

I'm worried that I'm going to waste my life being mean.

exdads on facebook and rd laing

I guess I feel like, if they have time to have a facebook, why don't they have time to send me a card or an email or a message? Am I supposed to add them? Message them? Email my stepdad and ask, why did you stop talking to me. Email my dad and ask, why did you leave and never talk to me again. You obviously talk to other people. I can see a list of them, on that website we're both on. It seems so High Fidelity, but with family members. Do I just get over it?

The other person's behavior is an experience of mine. My behavior is an experience of the other. The task of social phenomenology is to relate my experience of the other's behavior to the other's experience of my behavior.

I cannot experience your experience. You cannot experience my experience. We are both invisible men. All men are invisible to one another. Experience is man's invisibility to man.

from “Song of Myself”

by Walt Whitman (1819-1892)

I think I could turn and live with animals,

they are so placid and self-contain’d,

I stand and look at them long and long.

They do not sweat and whine about their condition,

They do not lie awake in the dark and weep for their sins,

They do not make me sick discussing their duty to God,

Not one is dissatisfied, not one is demented with the mania of owning things,

Not one kneels to another, nor to his kind that lived thousands of years ago,

Not one is respectable or unhappy over the whole earth.

failure to thrive

i could have lived without all that and bought myself an ipod nano.

why not spend $200+ in a day

job interview

walgreens:
two rolls of developed film
miniature composition notebook
schick quattro refill cartridges
mechanical pencils

whole foods:
non fat soy latte
electric aromatherapy
birthday card
almond milk
tortilla chips

library

vegethai:
sweet and sour soy chicken
thai iced tea

vogue nails:
manicure
pedicure
eyebrow wax
lip wax

swirl:
creme brulee frozen yogurt

peet's:
jasmine pearl tea

dalo's:
red stripe beer
vegan platter
ethiopian honey wine